The most overwhelming feeling

I just got married on September 15th (that’s us right there!), and as you can imagine, it was the happiest day of my life.  I was overcome with joy and my face hurt (in a good way) from all the smiling and laughing that came with the day’s surprises and emotions.  I could say I was overwhelmed by the love I felt for my (now) husband that day, but that’s not the feeling that hit me like a ton of bricks.

Wedding smiles!

Before you start to think I’m a terrible person, let me explain: of course I had all the gushy feelings of love happening that day.  I cannot count how many times I looked at him and felt rushes of emotions flow through me and it was all wonderful, but it did not overwhelm me because, you see, I have loved this man for a very long time and I get these feelings very often when I look at him, they were just a bit amplified that day because of all the additional wedding day emotions – nothing to be concerned about.

The stuff that really hit me hard was totally unexpected and as I said before, overwhelming.  The feeling I’m talking about here is gratitude.

I don’t recall ever feeling quite to blessed, thankful, loved and helped as I did on my wedding day, though the overwhelming gratitude started making its way into life long before September 15th.  Everyone from my mother to the staff did everything they could to make sure things were just right, and on top of it, our friends were so, so, so generous in giving their time, efforts, and gifts in an unexpected, and (I repeat) overwhelming way.  This is the best kind of overwhelmed I have ever felt!  And to be honest, it’s difficult to deal with.  How do I thank everyone?  Make them feel as loved as I feel? Express as sincerely as possible how much what they’ve done meant to me?  I still don’t know the answers to those questions, and I can only hope that I one day figure them out because these people need to know – I need them to know!

Here’s a sneak peek at how wonderful everything looked

In all honesty, I mostly wanted to write this post not just to make known to the world how grateful I am for the wonderful friends and family we have and how selflessly they gave for the biggest day of our lives, but to remind myself whenever I go back to this post how blessed we are.  I wrote this so that my future self can read and remember a day when everything got done and I wasn’t the one running around, working alone, and being stubborn because things need to be done my way – yet everything was wonderful and beautiful and ultimately perfect.  I wrote this because this overwhelming feeling has been the reason I have profusely, passionately and incessantly thanked God for all of the ways in which He has blessed me, not just on that day, but every day.

It’s 11 days after the wedding and the tight overwhelming feeling in my chest hasn’t gone away yet – you know, the feeling like you could break down and cry at any moment out of pure happiness?  I feel that pretty much all the time these days.  I’d love to say that I don’t want it to ever go away, but it’s a bit exhausting being this excited about being grateful all of the time!  Hopefully this post will be enough to remind me of this euphoric feeling, and I can only hope I get to write more reminder posts like this!